Chapter 1: The Weight of Words

The challenge of finding the right words can be overwhelming. It's not merely a case of writer's block or a wandering muse; my mind is filled with countless thoughts and narratives eager to be expressed. My writing routine is functioning well today, and I am ready to engage with the craft.

Despite this, a significant shift occurred on Friday that has left me at a loss for what to express.

I find myself grappling with my voice because the myriad of stories in my mind feel muted. The world has been evolving for some time, but recent events have clarified the direction my country wishes to take.

I struggle to articulate my thoughts, coming from a position of privilege. As a 6'2" white male military veteran with a graduate education, I have a life story that reflects my advantages. My rights are not under siege, and those around me often avoid these conversations altogether.

I don’t know what to write.

Instead, I choose to listen.

On Saturday, I shared a ride with three remarkable women from my Taiko group to a performance. During that journey, I focused on absorbing the emotions of those I care about, as they expressed their anger, fear, and sorrow.

I listened and absorbed.

In the days that followed, I reflected on their narratives and engaged in discussions with my partner, soaking in her insights. I allow these thoughts to marinate in my mind, nurturing them like seeds in a garden.

I still don’t know what to write.

Thus, I will elevate the voices of others—those who carry stories that resonate with more significance and authority than my own. People who have been denied the same rights I take for granted.

This is my form of active resistance today.

I don’t know what to write...

So I turn to the words of those who do. Esteemed writers like Kerry Purvis...

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And Maria Shimizu Christensen...

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As I reflect, I invite you to share the names and works of others who have powerful narratives to share in the comments. I will read every contribution. Let’s amplify their voices and strive to understand their fear, pain, and sorrow.

I don’t know what to write.

Yet, so many do...

And I am here to listen.