Chapter 1: The Beginning of a New Hope

In 2017, I was unaware of the path that would lead me to motherhood. Approaching 35, I had uterine cysts, which didn't bode well for conception. Additionally, I grappled with the fear of repeating my mother's struggles with addiction, mental health issues, and tumultuous behavior during my upbringing. My mother was just 24 when she had me, and she was not prepared for the responsibilities of parenthood.

After experiencing Ayahuasca in 2017, I underwent a profound transformation. Mother Ayahuasca imparted a sense of unconditional love, but I still wasn't ready to embrace the idea of having children. My body was not yet prepared, either.

However, everything shifted in early 2018 when I engaged in a weekend Iboga ceremony.

At that time, I felt renewed and cleansed. Just a week prior to the ceremony, I had come across information suggesting that Iboga could enhance fertility, although I didn’t focus on that aspect. I was more invested in addressing my internal patterns. Having recently completed a 300-hour Yoga Teacher Training in Thailand, I became aware of my mental programming for the first time during this period.

There was a pivotal moment at the train station, shortly after that transformative Iboga experience. My partner and I noticed a little girl smiling at us, and in that instant, we shared a knowing glance — we were ready to have children.

We felt determined to break the cycle of our parents' mistakes, aspiring to raise our children with love, patience, and kindness. Remarkably, my body had healed as well.

Chapter 2: A Miraculous Transformation

After my single flood dose of Iboga, I was astonished to find that my uterine cysts had vanished. Just three weeks later, I discovered I was pregnant. It was unbelievable.

The first pregnancy was wonderful, despite the challenges it presented, such as nausea and physical changes. I continued practicing yoga, including headstands, until week 32. I prepared for a natural water birth using hypnobirthing techniques, and everything went smoothly. In December 2018, we welcomed our beautiful son at home, born into water without any complications. I was fortunate to experience the exceptional midwifery system in the Netherlands, which made me feel safe and well-supported.

Following the birth, I received invaluable assistance from a professional known as Kraamzorg, who provided care and advice for a week. Initially overwhelmed, we took in all the advice around us, but instinctively chose to co-sleep with our baby. We decided to follow our own path rather than adhere to strict routines or the popular "cry-it-out" method — a story for another day.

Chapter 3: A Grateful Heart

Today, I am a proud mother of two children, aged 3 and 5. My partner and I are dedicated to guiding them in discovering their true selves and leading joyful lives. I feel immensely grateful for how everything has unfolded.

I became a mother for the first time at 36 and again at 38. My doctors would have never anticipated this outcome, but the transformative effects of Iboga and the flood dose I experienced were pivotal in healing my body and preparing my mind.

Always hold onto your dreams — anything is achievable. Nature offers the perfect remedy for whatever challenges you may face.

Namasté.

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